i feel like matilda/belle when i skip down to the local library to trade in my book & see what new title they've got instore for me.
sitting on the shelf labelled "mind, body, spirit" (my usual cliché sorry not sorry) was a book called Quiet.
ironically describing me today on an introspective hideaway as i shut down for a few days & rest.
it's an interesting view through the eyes of an introvert in a very extroverted world.
i always found it hard to understand how i can be so confident but so incredibly shy. preferring to observe first & hone in on a blessed soul in the crowd that also presents themselves to be quiet or lost, knowing i don't have to compete or level up to their energy. avoiding small talk & infiltrating them with a topic that takes me direct to their self; & talk about real thoughts/dreams/ideas/passions...
i want to know who you really are...
simultaneously, i'll walk past a busy bar at night or see friends getting together & think 'damn i want to be there' or 'that looks so fun!'
i even get a rush from presenting or story telling or leading a yoga class.
how can i enjoy commanding a room full of people or facilitate an event while at the same time wishing to remain invisible?
how can i desire phases of intense heated stimulation before switching to monastery-style hibernation?
how can i be sharing photos of a tree i liked one day to a thirst trap the next?
coming across the word ambivert was a comforting diagnosis to know that it's possible to be both, to be pulled towards one or the other, or even feel both at the same time.
rather than clashing or arguing that you must choose your team, expressing both sides of this personality allows me to live without justifying who i need to be that day; free of guilt.
so which one are you?
the introvert
the extrovert
or the ambivert?
by yogiwhale
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